the nite is freezing~ so cold. and i'm doing my nite routine. online.chat with my friend.doing some reading.searching for pictures.write something.thinking of someone.and feeling somehow lost,lonely,missing.needahug. huu feelings are something i have no control over. i've tried to be positive but it's getting harder when nothing seem to work out. i have no expectation on this before. i'm finding the cure, that someone. it's hard. getting mad or let him go doesn't mean i don't love him.but because too much love.too much worries.too much sins. love is not equal to happiness for some reasons. got to fix it by letting go. i'm lying and i'm tired, tired of not being able to just let go. i'm afraid, afraid if i can't find one of a kind that i can truly love again.
watever mean to be will work out perfectly. accept the fate.
hepi december dear.. and i'm going about to freeze too.. freeze ur feeling, and wait for summer to get ur sunshine.. to cheerup u..
ReplyDeletealmost 2 n half years... he is never going to be mine
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