20 years ago, i born wit this in my dna.

aku tau .aku cam bodo at time orang engat aku tak buat apa-apa sebab aku bodoh.?salah babe.

tak yah lar nak judge aku bila tak tau life aku camna. kita dilahirkan ditempat yang bebeza ,dibesarkan dengan cara yang bebeza dan environment yang kita da immune tu sangat bebeza. saja lar aku bagitau kalu kau tak tepikir camtu. dan tak yah judge aku bila tak kenal aku. bat aku nak gelak ja. bai

wordless wednesday #5

lala la la la laaaa~

si penyepak : aku rasa hidup aku ni hanya untuk menyenangkan dan menyusahkan orang laen, aku tak tau apa yang aku dapat untuk diri sendiri.

si pelempang : hahahaha

si penyepak : T.T

si pelempang : kau tak da,tak complete hidup aku..

si penyepak : awat plak?

si pelempang : tak tau.....da aku rasa camtu.

 let's give more than demanding more and give meaning to others life. be the one that someone would really appreciate.you just have to be there.

 

 

 

 

special things in life come to those who wait...

i love this :)
pinky nite sky
im sleepy
wind please blow my hair, sing a song.
im on diet! hahhaha because im getting fat.
hari ni makan nasik 3kali,unusual. oke sampai esok da plan nak makan apa untuk breakfast.
dan balik hostel beli nasik lemak, da seminggu asyik makan nasik lemak ja.
dan asyik dahaga jaaaaaaaaaaa...
ni effect telan antibiotic ya?  o.o


mengantokkk
nanti jangan mimpi merepekrepek ya.. gudnite.but the reality is gudmorning. it's 225am dear.please behave your own ass.dont tonggek tonggek masa tidoq.


im feeling like missing someone taht.. i dont know. is there someone out there misses me? i think i know who is he. he is a he.  he is handsome, intelligent, tough with 6packs,he is my future husband.omk!! anak menantu mak!
i have sorta feeling.maybe just a feeling.
and dont know why im excited for tomorrow like something gonna happens. theese kinda feeling alweys mees me up during the nites,now and the previous previous one.haha. untill the feelings rip my eyes and put me into a sleepless dream. huarrghh im will surviveeeee.. tomorrow school. got classes. continue dreaming in the classes.
i konw u dont know wat actually im merepeking.anyway bytheway highway thankq for reading.

wordless wednesday #4

mannnnnn..hahaha

ya, we've our ups and downs but we've always work them out
babe am i ever glad we got this far now
still im lying here tonight wishing i was by your side
cause when i not there enough nothing feel right.

screwed wat they said,now they regret. thankq for being so strong for me. thankq for being real in a fucking fake world. man you're amazing ;D
everything works out, alhamdulillah.

self..please be grateful.

 "When Allah tests you, it is never to destroy you. When He removes something in your possession, it is only in order to empty your hands for an even greater gift!." [Ibn Al-Qayyim]

be grateful, it would not happened to someone less able to overcome it. you are stronger than that someone.

music pick avril lavigne

wordless wednesday #3

every of ur words is taken to the heart

bole tak aku nak cakap kebanyakkan doctor skang belajar tinggi-tinggi tapi bodoh. penah tak sapa-sapa lalui benda camni, doctor anda gelakkan anda, suruh pesakit balik rumah sebab tak da harapan nak sembuh, buat muka menyampah kat pesakit bila pesakit mengadu sakit bila ada complication, cam bodoh tak? mana etika sebagai seorang doctor? please consider docter, every of ur words/action is taken to the heart. sebab orang yang sakit ni hati dia sangat sensitif. aku tau lar job kau ni tak da life kan, tapi kalu kau buat keja sebab kau memang gifted, nak gaji tinggi, senang dapat keja, tak payah lar jadi docter, buat sakit hati ja.tak ikhlas lansung.

music pick paramore

maybe i know somewhere deep in my soul love never lasts..
and we,ve got to find another ways to make it alone
or keep a straight face
and i,ve always live like this
keeping a comfortable distance
and up until now i had sworn to myself that im content with loneliness
because one of it was ever worth the risk

disenchanted part of me

i lied when i teld myself i've completely forgot u. it have been 2years and i thougt i will forget.and after wat we've been through, i am still missing u.damn
i wish i didnt delete my fb account so that i can stalk u again and being jelous over the girls. it will continue giving me heartache.
i thhough i will hate u after all the too many chances i gave. all i know is,i hate myself for missing u fucker. i dont know why since u are a loser, and since i dream of u a lot, since i miss u a lot, since i cant see ur face, since u call me before dawn just to tell me ur dream that nite, since i pray for u alot, since we clashed, since u cancaled our daye for drugs, since i frustrated wit u, since i cried alot, since i almost failed my exam,  since i think u dont even think of me, since u keep deactivating ur fb account consistantly, since u keep hurting those girls, since they are stupid, since u told me u love other girl more, but since u drunk, but since  ur 1hour call that night for me just to tell me how much u want me, still love me and ur story of a loser. and since i dont think we can be together again,i keep avoiding u since u r my heroe even u lost urself.
i keep our story. i can never forget even i try to.
u just a sad song with nothing to say

music pick greenday

summer have come and past,
the innocent can't never last
wake me up when september past

like my father come to past,
7years have gone so fast
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memories rest, but never forget what i lost
wake me up when september ends

ring out the bell again like we did when spring begins
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends.

music pick mcr

turn away,
if you could get me a drink
of water cause my lips are
chapped and faded

and bury me in all my favorite colors
my sisters and my brothers, still i will not kiss you,
cause the hardest part of this
is leaving you.

now turn away,
cause im awful just to see
cause all my hair's
abandoned all my body,

oh my agony
know that I will never marry,
baby, im just soggy from the chemo
but counting down the days to go.
it just aint living.
and I just hope you know
that if you say
gudbye today
i'd ask you to be true
cause the hardest part of this
is leaving you...
cause the hardest part of this is leaving you.

sapa nak kawan yang cam pooh ?

babe.. tadi aku baca suatu blog,diceritakan tentang sahabat.
aku menangis.sebabnya, aku pun tak tau. mungkin tesentuh hati aku bila teringatkan kawan-kawan yang aku sentiasa rindu, kawan-kawan yang dimana pesahabatan kita tekesan dalam hidup aku.


dan disini, hehe..
aku ingin bercakap berkaitan kamu-kamu semua.


aku tak tau lar camna dia semua bole terima orang cam aku ni sebagai kawan.haha. terima kasih banyak-banyak sebab penah bekongsi cerita rasa dengan aku. aku tak lupa jasa semua yang bila aku ada masalah aku cerita dan tak judge aku sebagai mengada-ngada. dan apa yang paling buat aku sayang, bila esok hari kita contact dan dia tanya, masalah aku semalam da settle? tu bukti yang dia tak amek mudah apa yang aku luahkan. dan aku tambah lagi sayang bila dia nampak aku murung dan dia tanya, kenapa ni diam ja? sebenarnya apa yang dia tanya tu da buat aku lupa sekejap masalah aku dan mampu senyum ja kat dia. terima kasih banyak-banyak.aku hargai babe walaupun aku ni cam takda perasaan, tapi hakikatnya aku engat.
dan.aku sebenarnya sangat senang untuk rindu mereka-mereka semua, tambah-tambah lagi bila da lama tak jumpa. nak contact takot annoying lak.

best friends are people who make your problems theirs and never let you make it through alone.

praying to the same God

"Never have I witnessed such sincere hospitality and overwhelming spirit of true brotherhood as is practiced by people of all colors and races here in this ancient Holy Land, the home of Abraham, Muhammad and all the other Prophets of the Holy Scriptures. For the past week, I have been utterly speechless and spellbound by the graciousness I see displayed all around me by people of all colors. 

"I have been blessed to visit the Holy City of Mecca, I have made my seven circuits around the Ka'ba, led by a young Mutawaf named Muhammad, I drank water from the well of the Zam Zam. I ran seven times back and forth between the hills of Mt. Al-Safa and Al Marwah. I have prayed in the ancient city of Mina, and I have prayed on Mt. Arafat." 

"There were tens of thousands of pilgrims, from all over the world. They were of all colors, from blue-eyed blondes to black-skinned Africans. But we were all participating in the same ritual, displaying a spirit of unity and brotherhood that my experiences in America had led me to believe never could exist between the white and non-white." 

"America needs to understand Islam, because this is the one religion that erases from its society the race problem. Throughout my travels in the Muslim world, I have met, talked to, and even eaten with people who in America would have been considered white - but the white attitude was removed from their minds by the religion of Islam. I have never before seen sincere and true brotherhood practiced by all colors together, irrespective of their color." 

"You may be shocked by these words coming from me. But on this pilgrimage, what I have seen, and experienced, has forced me to rearrange much of my thought-patterns previously held, and to toss aside some of my previous conclusions. This was not too difficult for me. Despite my firm convictions, I have always been a man who tries to face facts, and to accept the reality of life as new experience and new knowledge unfolds it. I have always kept an open mind, which is necessary to the flexibility that must go hand in hand with every form of intelligent search for truth." 

"During the past eleven days here in the Muslim world, I have eaten from the same plate, drunk from the same glass, and slept on the same rug - while praying to the same God - with fellow Muslims, whose eyes were the bluest of blue, whose hair was the blondest of blond, and whose skin was the whitest of white. And in the words and in the deeds of the white Muslims, I felt the same sincerity that I felt among the black African Muslims of Nigeria, Sudan and Ghana." 

"We were truly all the same (brothers) - because their belief in one God had removed the white from their minds, the white from their behavior, and the white from their attitude." 

"I could see from this, that perhaps if white Americans could accept the Oneness of God, then perhaps, too, they could accept in reality the Oneness of Man - and cease to measure, and hinder, and harm others in terms of their 'differences' in color." 

"With racism plaguing America like an incurable cancer, the so-called 'Christian' white American heart should be more receptive to a proven solution to such a destructive problem. Perhaps it could be in time to save America from imminent disaster - the same destruction brought upon Germany by racism that eventually destroyed the Germans themselves." 

"Each hour here in the Holy Land enables me to have greater spiritual insights into what is happening in America between black and white. The American Negro never can be blamed for his racial animosities - he is only reacting to four hundred years of the conscious racism of the American whites. But as racism leads America up the suicide path, I do believe, from the experiences that I have had with them, that the whites of the younger generation, in the colleges and universities, will see the handwriting on the walls and many of them will turn to the spiritual path of truth - the only way left to America to ward off the disaster that racism inevitably must lead to." 

"Never have I been so highly honored. Never have I been made to feel more humble and unworthy. Who would believe the blessings that have been heaped upon an American Negro? A few nights ago, a man who would be called in America a white man, a United Nations diplomat, an ambassador, a companion of kings, gave me his hotel suite, his bed. Never would I have even thought of dreaming that I would ever be a recipient of such honors - honors that in America would be bestowed upon a King - not a Negro." 

"All praise is due to Allah, the Lord of all the Worlds. 

Sincerely, 

Al-Hajj Malik El-Shabazz (Malcolm X) 

(From the AUTOBIOGRAPHY OF MALCOLM X with assistance from Alex Haley, the author of ROOTS) 

wordless wednesday #2

gerry to holly

a love strory that once made me cry, because in the reality is.

a letter from a christian to muslim women.

dikopi n pasta dari zharifalimin.blogspot.com

sekadar untuk perkongsian yang hebat! benda ni bagus dan bekesan. aku tak baca sampai habis sebab banyak sangat,sambung bacaan kemudian. walau tak baca semua, tapi aku suda cukup terasa dan menyesal, this is so true.girls should read this. memandangkan semua followers aku adalah perempuan,dan seorang pondan.

tak tau lar ada yang penah baca ka tak.

I see you as precious gems, pure gold, or the “pearl of great value” spoken of in the Bible (Matthew 13: 45). All women are pearls of great value, but some of us have been deceived into doubting the value of our purity.

Jesus said: “Give not that which is holy unto the dogs, neither cast your pearls before swine, lest they trample them under their feet, and turn again and rend you” (Matthew 7: 6).

Our pearls are priceless, but they convince us that they’re cheap. But trust me; there is no substitute for being able to look in the mirror and seeing purity, innocence and self-respect staring back at you.

The fashions coming out of the Western sewer are designed to make you believe that your most valuable asset is your sexuality. But your beautiful dresses and veils are actually sexier than any Western fashion, because they cloak you in mystery and show self-respect and confidence.

A woman’s sexuality should be guarded from unworthy eyes, since it should be your gift to the man who loves and respects you enough to marry you. And since your men are still manly warriors, they deserve no less than your best.

Our men don’t even want purity anymore. They don’t recognize the pearl of great value, opting for the flashy rhinestone instead. Only to leave her too!

Your most valuable assets are your inner beauty, your innocence, and everything that makes you who you are. But I notice that some Muslim women push the limit and try to be as Western as possible, even while wearing a veil (with some of their hair showing).

Why imitate women who already regret, or will soon regret, their lost virtue? There is no compensation for that loss.

You are flawless diamonds. Don’t let them trick you into becoming rhinestones. Because everything you see in the fashion magazines and on Western television is a lie. It is Satan’s trap. It is fool’s gold.

A Woman’s Heart

I’ll let you in on a little secret, just in case you’re curious: pre-marital sex is not even that great. We gave our bodies to the men we were in love with, believing that that was the way to make them love us and want to marry us, just as we had seen on television growing up.

But without the security of marriage and the sure knowledge that he will always stay with us, it’s not even enjoyable! That’s the irony. It was just a waste. It leaves you in tears.

Speaking as one woman to another, I believe that you understand that already. Because only a woman can truly understand what’s in another woman’s heart. We really are all alike.

Our race, religion or nationalities do not matter. A woman’s heart is the same everywhere. We love. That’s what we do best. We nurture our families and give comfort and strength to the men we love.

But we American women have been fooled into believing that we are happiest having careers, our own homes in which to live alone, and freedom to give our love away to whomever we choose. That is not freedom. And that is not love.

Only in the safe haven of marriage can a woman’s body and heart be safe to love. Don’t settle for anything less. It’s not worth it. You won’t even like it and you’ll like yourself even less afterwards. Then he’ll leave you.

Self-Denial

Sin never pays. It always cheats you. Even though I have reclaimed my honor, there’s still no substitute for having never been dishonored in the first place.

We Western women have been brainwashed into thinking that you Muslim women are oppressed. But truly, we are the ones who are oppressed; slaves to fashions that degrade us, obsessed with our weight, begging for love from men who do not want to grow up.

Deep down inside, we know that we have been cheated. We secretly admire and envy you, although some of us will not admit it.

Please do not look down on us or think that we like things the way they are. It’s not our fault. Most of us did not have fathers to protect us when we were young because our families have been destroyed. You know who is behind this plot.

Don’t be fooled, my sisters. Don’t let them get you too. Stay innocent and pure. We Christian women need to see what life is really supposed to be like for women. We need you to set the example for us, because we are lost. Hold onto your purity.

Remember: you can’t put the toothpaste back in the tube. So guard your “toothpaste” carefully! I hope you receive this advice in the spirit in which it is intended: the spirit of friendship, respect, and admiration.

From your Christian sister 'with love'.

perlu tajuk?klik disini

gwa rasa sangat nak muntah. 2hari lepas gwa taip assingment satu page ,untuk satu soalan.tapi gwa silap. kopi n pasta bukan style gwa. silap gwa tak reti beza cacing dengan protozoa. apa jadah p mampos lar cacing. aku telan kari satu besen mati kot hang! blah dari kawasan aku
cacing apa yang menyebabkan eosinophilia?kebanyakkan cacing lar babe.bodos.
tapi cacing apa yang menyebabkan chronic insomnia?mr google masih tidak bole memberikan jawapan yang aku cari.apa kaitan chronic insomnia?
dan..cacing made in africa,adakah gurauan atau untuk kekonfiusan? gwa da lama tinggal spm babe. soklan spm bole lar nak maen cuit-cuit benda yang tak da kaitan. soklan spm pun gwa maen belasah ja. aku rasa cacing itu merata-rata kot...  O.o

silap gwa.gwa silap jawab soklan no 2 dulu. hahahaha
tapi.. adakah itu helminth-related eosinophilia?mesti lar bangang! benda skang apa nama dia, cacing tu cacing cacing.

next week mungkin perlu present romantic heart disease. ya, aku memang terrer pun present. memang suara aku begema satu lecture room pun.nyampah aku.

dear fqfqfqfqfqffqfqfqfq,

nak buat keja mesti ikhlas.ingat amanah dari ayah.

rasa cam nak tido ja. wadehek lue. pg jahanam lar kalu nak pointer rendah lagi.
oke fine fine fine lekluuuuuuuuuu


apa yang aku mencarot ni..  o.o     hanya mereka yang mengenali sahaja yang mengaerti. .wtvr
aku rasa cam............. tak puas lagi raya.hahahahhahahahahhahahaha tapi raya taun ni cam tak best ja.. donno
tuptuptup da kena balik hostel yang oldskolrocka ni.
nak date pun tak sempat hehee :D
nak tido pun tak puas,gehahaha.