sister

i am listening to hey soul sister and thinking of my older sister who wasn't at home for aidilfitri because have classes to be attended on the day. my dad obviously missed her. my mum just like relax relax saja.. haha. but surely she also felt the same. well sisterku yang tua, remember what i wrote on the card i gave for your birthday, family means nobody gets left behind and forgotten. you know how lucky you are.

skin-and-bone

so why are you allowed to love your curves, but it is wrong for me to love my bones? why is it okay for you to call me anorexic, but horrible for me to call you fat? if you can tell me to gain weight, why can't i tell you to lose weight? if you can feel beautiful for being big, i can feel beautiful for being small. get over it.

time, heart, behaviour

up

let's find a new adventure.

gahaha

wide awake

at first, i was a map you used to find her. you kept calling me asking about her. when you lost hope, you told me "i love you". i asked "why me?". came the time you said "man proposes, God disposes." and everything felt so much bliss.you were my everything then. but somehow you forgot everything.

eventually, i'm the mess that you left behind. thankq for letting me know what a retarded skinny bitch i am to you.  well boy, you don't deserve my best when you can't handle me at my worst. sorry for not counting the times i waited for you, for not counting the distances between us, for not counting my tears, sweat, tiredness,  for not counting my acceptance of your imperfections, for not counting the pain, for not counting the guts to stay everytime we fight. sorry to annoy you with my insecurities, jealousy, madness and harsh words when i was feeling like i'll lose you.sorry because i cared too much. sorry to be a reason of your sadness. sorry i was disable to be like those girls you can get along. sorry for being unable to payback yours,everything you gave. and sorry for can't make you understand how much i try to create a base of our relationship that God may bless, how much i want you to be in my future. sorry for loving you with all myself. maybe you won't find that self again.

i try to run but i don't want ever leave

all i know is i love you too much to walk away though